The past sentence

Waiting / 等待

2012-03-08T19:31:00.003-08:00

waiting for sun to peek out
waiting for Spring
tapping my fingers
I wait
.
等待着日出
等待著春天
手指輕輕敲着
我等著

waiting to see the flowers bloom
waiting to see you smile
waiting to feel the warmth.
wiggle my toes
I wait
.
等待着花朵盛開的日子
等待着你的笑顏
等待着你的溫暖
扭動着腳指頭
我等著

waiting for a walk along the sand
waiting for the breeze against my face
waiting for birds' singing fill my ears
shake my head a little
I wait
.
and I wait
patiently
.
等待着沿著沙灘散步
等待着微風輕撫着臉頰
等待着小鳥為我歌唱
搖搖頭
我等著
.
我等
耐心的
等

Music. with nothing playing / 無聲.的美麗

2012-01-06T11:26:00.000-08:00

Sitting by the window

watch the sunlight. shadow move

slowly

.
坐在窗前
看著光.影緩慢移動
.

cars driving by. randomly

compressor of the refrigerator kick in. once a while
ice falling from the roof. a cracking sound. when it hit the ground
A few " m-i-a-o" from her - wanting my attention
.
車聲有時
冰箱的壓縮機久久啟動
屋頂上的冰雪
碎落砸地
幾聲喵
我的貓吵著要人陪

thought of Mary Oliver's poems
so singular, beautiful and ordinary
想起瑪麗奧利佛的詩
有著平凡獨一無二的美麗
.
thought of Emily Dickinson's words
quiet, instinctively and profound
想起艾蜜莉狄更苼的寫作
出世忠於自我字字深省
.
thought of Zaz's voice
rough, jazzy and soothing
想起Ｚ的歌聲
粗糙帶有爵士樂的溫柔

when I think of you

I can't hear anything

but

想起你的時候

甚麼都聽不見
除了

my own heart

我的心

beats
跳

Goodbye & Hello 再.見

2011-12-11T12:27:00.001-08:00

You wanted say goodbye, before you head out
this trip - three months long
with a folding bike and a tent
.
出發之前你想說聲再見
這一去至少三個月
帶著折疊自行車和一頂帳篷
.
A foreign land, you long for
absolute solitude
with lots sun light- warmth
sleep with stars
listen the birds and river
.
陌生的國度有你深沈的渴望
絕對的孤獨
數不盡的陽光溫暖
擁著星辰入夢
鳥語流水相伴

You were a little anxious
like a rock-star before went on the stage
I screamed and shouted as your biggest fan
though I was afraid too
afraid of losing the connection with you
.
你隱隱的不安有些緊張
像快出場的巨星在後台等待
我嘶聲吶喊像忠實的歌迷
其實我也有些害怕
怕就這樣失去了你

This is not the ending, you said
it's a beginning of a new journey
adventure for you and I
.
這不是故事的結局你說
是一段旅程的開始
是你我的冒險故事
.
So
Hello! there.

Beautiful life - 美麗人生

2011-11-16T21:17:00.001-08:00

C said " your life is beautiful! "

with tears in his eyes

他說你的人生真是美麗！

眼裡閃著淚光
.

I though about the life I have

in the past ten years

came to the Sate and finished the class I signed up for

I got married, and divorced

once I lived on two slices of bread daily

now I have a place of my own
回想過去這十年的日子
來到美國完成想學的課程
結了婚也離了
一度每日靠兩片土司過日
現在有個屬於自的地方

I have cried, like a rain storm

almost gave up,just wanted to stay in the dark

I have laughed, until couldn't catch up my breathe

I have been so angry, flames up like fire

曾經哭泣有如暴雨

幾乎放棄希望寧願停留在黑暗

曾經狂笑甚至無法換氣

曾經生氣怒火高漲

visited five different cities

sydney, shanghai, tokyo, edinburgh, madrid

hamburg is on next itinerary

拜訪過五個城市

雪梨上海東京愛丁堡馬德里

漢堡是下個目的地

Have been to five weddings, mine doesn't count
welcomed eight new life to this world and witness their growth
lost five people who I was closed to, includes my dear father
曾經參加過五次婚禮自己的不算
歡迎過八個新生命加入這個世界也目睹他們的成長
失去了五個親人和好友至愛的父親是其中之一
.
in the middle of November , one thirty A.M.
temperature is thirty four degree fahrenheit
walking on the street without any jacket on
its cold
I just said my good bye to a dear one
she is not my really mother but I call her"mom"
在拾壹月中旬的清晨一點三十分
氣溫華氏三十四度
走在街道上忘了穿夾克
真的冷
剛剛跟她說了最後道別
雖不是親生的母親但我稱她媽

I am really sad tears are coming down
look up the sky
thousands of stars sparkling
pouring into my eyes
here it is
my beautiful life!
真的好難過眼淚直流
仰頭看天確見眾星閃耀
這是
我的美麗人生

Wordless - 無言

2011-10-21T20:44:00.000-07:00

so I laugh

所以我暢顏歡笑

My heart
cracked opened and let in
the breeze of
Happiness

笑聲敲開了心窗

徐徐吹進
幸福的微風

Madrid, we first met - 初見馬德里

2011-10-01T17:25:00.000-07:00

Madrid - is your name
We met on a sunny day
.
A hint of Muslim background
Hang out with Roman for a while
Later was influenced by Christian
they said
.
you are quite complicated
sophisticated even
馬德里是妳的芳名
我們在陽光普照下相見
.
聽說
經歷回教洗禮羅馬影響
加上基督教的後期鍛鍊
妳有複雜的情緒
也許該說是歷練世故

Bright and clear as a mirror
you, welcomed me
with an open heart
.
well, not just for me
for everyone who pass by
明亮清澄如鏡子般
妳敞胸擁我
.
等等不只對我
每一個過客
妳ㄧ致熱情

we ate

一起饕食

we drank

共享酩酊

we walked street by street

he was a wild one

she was a sweet lady

he loved to dance

You used to tear, every time you hear her sing

One by one

you counted them out with the stories

loves . didn't last

散步街頭

走著走著妳細數

逝去的愛情放不下的心悸

他的狂野

她的甜蜜

愛跳舞的他

唱出真情的那個人

I have to say

it's really intense

on our first date

Oh, Madrid

maybe

we should have some coffee

and call it the day

坦白說

這一切似乎過於激烈

我們畢竟只是初次見面

喔馬德里

讓我們喝杯咖啡吧！

今天就先這樣了

J.K's Farm -記農場

2011-09-23T17:36:00.000-07:00

Visited J.K's farm finally
總算
拜訪了 J.K的農場

over two hundred acres of land

alfalfa, sudan grass
cover most of ground
.
兩百多英畝土地
佔滿紫花苜蓿和蘇丹草
.
We got some haying to do
J.K, Bob and I

我們三人

有收割晒草的任務在身

.
A John Deer tractor
attached to a grass cutter
then the blower
then the wagon in the end
一輛牽引車掛著大型收割器
再加風箱
所有的草都落進運貨車箱裡

Hot. warm sun
Ear plug block out the noise from the tractor
Back and forth
陽光熾熱
耳塞擋住大部份的機械嘶吼
來來回回

Dragon flies and I
enjoyed the ride on the grass field.
蜻蜓和我
享受著在牧草場馳騁
.
I love the farm
the opneness
the stillness
the harshness
with
lots of strength
lots of life
lots of possibility
愛上了農場如此寬廣凝止甚至粗糙
卻同時擁有無盡的能量和生命力
還有無窮的可能性

I don't belong here
but
it took me in
with such kindness
我不屬於農場
但是
它以仁慈迎接

On my way out
the wind whispered
在回程的路上
清風送來農場的輕語

come back
soon
再回來
探訪我
.

After visited Bean.

2011-09-17T12:35:00.000-07:00

Sit by the water

warm bright sun

light breeze

back-raspberry twist with maple cream-mee

in hand

Brandi Carlile sang her heart out

into my ears

read

the journey of Eric Weiner

search of the happiest place in the world

joyful cheers!!

and claps! form far

a bride in white gown

companied with three deep purple dresss

as they walked by

What a beautiful day!!

What are you up to?

Not sure why

I thought of Mary Oliver

"As for death, I can't wait to be the hummingbird, can you?"

she said, in her poem

thoughts lingered

If it's my turn to pick

I want to be a big old tree

you can come and sit by me

tell me all your story

I will tickle you

while you read me the poem

Stars. Words

2011-09-13T13:28:00.000-07:00

Sunday night 8pm

" ..when all the stars line up
the way they should

you are the most beautiful woman
I've known..." M.D said

I looked down to check my cell signal

all the bars are full

every words came in

loud and clear

It's a compliment

I think
sounded pretty also

Though

the words formed into snow

and swirled

around and around

couldn't find their way

to settle in

I don't know how stars line up

Beautiful

is too far to reach

I am here

just me

under the sun

in the rain

full moon or no moon

with stars or not

sometimes it's pitch-dark

I am me

And then I found you

2011-09-10T21:03:00.001-07:00

Oil Painting by Carol Norton

titled " and then I found you "

It found me at Art Hop yesterday

It moved me to tears.

Embarrassed I was

but

with joy

It decided to be with me this morning

will move in next Monday

I believe

we will aways be

happy

with each other

Sounds like a marriage

almost

but a lot easier

Prime Numbers - To Pete. H

2011-09-06T13:48:00.001-07:00

THREE

Was lonely one

THREE

Spent a lot of time

working on

Self -improvement projects

hoping

things would be different

Maybe

bent a little

three could look like six

grow a little

three could be an eight

tried and tired

THREE was

Nothing worked

In Scotland, 2011

Pete.H told me the story of being three

I asked why me?

he said "I know you are not normal!"

"You don't look like others"

I took off my mask

with a sense of gladness

and relief

I am

a SEVEN

under covered in NINE

Thirty nine years gone by

finally

Fair's Wheel

2011-09-03T14:59:00.000-07:00

9/2/2011

Fair's wheel was on my mind since I woke up this morning.

Not only the image of it,

the cheerful music came with it

they insists went to work with me

not going away.

So, set out to full fill the calling,

Must, I said.

This is not the first time I ride on the wheel

but

there were things catching my eyes

as I never saw them before

The fun I had from the ride